Another day, another set of queries sent out. I'm beginning to think I just wasn't cut out to market myself. Did you know I can't even properly sum up my own novel to people without thinking long and hard about it?
This isn't a matter of a poor story (I hope not!) but more that I, personally, seem to have trouble keeping track of things. I'd had to talk to my betas and there's definitely a theme. Thankfully the PitchMad competition helped me figure out what the core message of my novel was so now I feel like my query is slightly more accurate. Still, the more I stare at my own synopsis and query, the more I doubt my work.
This isn't unique to me by any means. It's just a writer thing. It's hard to know if we're good or bad because all writers go through a stage of hating their work. Well... most. Some stumble bass-ackwards into three movie contracts after writing their story on a Blackberry. But I digress. The point is, I know that worse books than mine have been published and been a success. I just need to find an agent that shares my vision and can champion my novel.
Heh... I'm starting to use their lingo. The rejection letters have accumulated enough that I'm starting to see the pattern in their word choices, the careful way of saying that they aren't interested without insulting your novel. Again, though, I need to keep in mind that this is natural. I'm supposed to wade through a sea of agents before finding the right one. Apparently JK Rowling couldn't get a second glance from her queries until one agent's daughter got a hold of her stuff and, more or less, yelled at her father to represent it.
But I can't could on luck like that. Everything's digital now, anyhow, so the chances of accidentally falling into a child's hands is terribly unlikely. I just need to gain more confidence in my work. I need to be my own champion and push forward, letting agents know that they'll love this book as much as I do. Which, as someone who grew up with low self-esteem, is a very awkward and uncomfortable thing to do. But I said I'd do anything to become a published author. That means stepping out of my comfort zone to do something for the better.
I did it when I went to the Netherlands to study. I did it when I built a pro wrestling organization from the ground up. I can do it with my book. I will do it with my book.
Be Excellent to Each Other.
Keep your eyes open for my debut novel, The Paladin.