I'm taking my time finishing this blog off. You see, I've spent the entire day writing and rewriting my query letter. It's pretty much ready to go and, logically, I can't come up with any other reasons to delay sending it.
My head says it's fine, it's written the same voice as the novel, it has a little humor and lays out the story in a concise, interesting way. But at the same time, my confidence is super low. Especially so soon after Pitch Wars where I didn't do so hot, I guess I'm a little gunshy here. I know the odds are against me. The chances of the first agent I contact wanting to represent me are low at best. I know, realistically, this is going to be my first (second?) rejection.
And yet with all that, I just can't bring myself to hit submit. I know it's as ready as I can make it. I know the novel is good. I'm just not confident in my ability to sell myself. And, really, I guess that's the rub. I need to be confident. Confidence is key, as the saying goes, and it shows in your writing. At the very least, I need to be able to fake it.
Yeah. Fake it. I mean, I managed to rewrite the query letter in an interesting way by pretending one of my characters was writing it. Maybe that's the key here. If this was someone else's work, I'd brag about it, talk it up, lay it on thick. I could do it because I believe in others. I just need to believe in myself, or rather, act the way I do when I believe in someone else.
Does that work? Act like I'm pimping someone else's work? Well... I guess we'll find out. Because once I'm done with this post, I'm submitting my first query. So... wish me luck!
Be Excellent to Each Other.
Keep your eyes open for my debut novel, The Paladin.