Pitch Wars Limbo

Another awesome session with the Smash Fiction guys. All I can say is make sure you're subscribed to their podcast because when the match I was in drops, you'll want to listen. It's freakin' amazing.

Self-promotion aside ... wait. It's MY website, the entire purpose is self-promotion. Oh well, point is, next subject... The Paladin is looking better and better each day and my sights are ready to be set on the sequel. I've had a bunch of ways I could've gone for the sequel. I guess I'm fortunate to have a lot of options for what I have to write next. 

It's a strange feeling when you've accepted that your work is not only real, but worth your and others' time. When you start thinking about your work in the same way you think about mainstream fiction. When you actually dream about your story and characters. It's so strange to think that soon my work could be, well... real. 

I've heard published authors talk about "impostor syndrome" and I think I've even mentioned it on the blog here, too. I don't think I'm far enough along to really claim it, but I wonder where I'll need to be in my writing career to feel like an author. Will it be when the book is published? When I bump into it in a book store? When I sign an autograph? When I'm contracted to write the sequel? Of course, this is all assuming any of these thing happen, but... I wonder. Where will it be?

Some people feel like a writer after their first page. Some not even after their tenth book. I wonder if I'll ever feel like I'm a writer, like I'm an author, like I'm a success. I don't want to be that person that's bragging about accomplishments I haven't made. I don't want to be the person inserting "by the way, I'm a writer" into every conversation. 

I guess with The Paladin floating in Pitch Wars limbo I'm feeling a little rant-y and existential. But you know, I think we're all entitled to a little rant here and there. 

DFTBA